I drove to NY today. I hate driving to NY. It means a whole day in a car. But I did get to see my voice teacher and work on my cabaret songs. But I hate the traffic in Manhattan. I am glad that when I move to NY, I am selling my car. I used an entire tank of gas and made my back sore. The things I do for my art :)
I am making progress on the cabaret, I have a possible accompanist!!!
I spent a lot of time today filling out paperwork for The Experiment. Its very tedious, but I am very hopeful that it will really payoff.
I wore a pair of shorts today that I hadn't been able to fit into in a while :) And I went running in between thunderstorms from the friggin hurricane.
But on the downside, I am nearly out of food. And I am very hungry. I have decided to go ahead and tap into next month's food money to buy groceries now. My mom has promised to send me some money to help with groceries.
I tried to amend my mothers tax return to get an extra $500. I mailed it on April 14th. The due date was April 15th. The IRS claimed that they didn't get it before the deadline, so they won't give us the money. GRRRRRRRR. I can't believe I lost out on $500 because I didn't mail something in fast enough :( I hate money!!!
Friday, August 21, 2009
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Is my life now all about food?
I feel like everything in my life is now about food. When I not eating, I am thinking about eating, when I can next eat according to my schedule, planning meals, looking up nutritional information, cooking, etc. Its literally hours every day. I am definitely seeing major results in weight loss, and I have successfully completely avoided sugar and fatty foods now for almost 10 weeks, but how long can I keep this up? I mean, I have a lot of free time now that its summer, but when school starts again can I really keep this up?
And I really really miss food. There is a billboard right by my apartment that has a giant chocolate cake on it. I want it. I want french fries. I want chocolate. Heck, mostly what I want is to just eat without planning out every bite. I miss that feeling of just eating and eating until I feel full. I haven't been full in 10 weeks. I am not always starving or anything, mostly I am just satisfied, but I miss being full of good food.
On a completely unrelated note, today I spent about 3 hours in my car. And tomorrow I will be driving to NY for a voice lesson, so that will be several hours more. Great. At least I have dance class tonight so I can feel active.
Still trying to get a pianist for my cabaret. Sigh.
And I really really miss food. There is a billboard right by my apartment that has a giant chocolate cake on it. I want it. I want french fries. I want chocolate. Heck, mostly what I want is to just eat without planning out every bite. I miss that feeling of just eating and eating until I feel full. I haven't been full in 10 weeks. I am not always starving or anything, mostly I am just satisfied, but I miss being full of good food.
On a completely unrelated note, today I spent about 3 hours in my car. And tomorrow I will be driving to NY for a voice lesson, so that will be several hours more. Great. At least I have dance class tonight so I can feel active.
Still trying to get a pianist for my cabaret. Sigh.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
The Cabaret is in motion!
Yay! I got a call today from the location that I want to hold my cabaret at, and they said it would be fine to hold it and gave me some days. I am so excited!!! Now I just have to nail down a pianist, then I can get moving on this. I think that once I have a date, I will be much better at working towards this. And, I don't have any tax classes next week so I can take all the time I need to practice my songs. So happy.
Today's food update: So my kitchen is continuing to get more and more sparse. I am now out of turkey bacon as well as egg beaters so I have no more real "breakfast-y" food. Soooo...tomorrow it looks like breakfast will be an orange and some chicken breast?
I also drank a heck of a lot of water today. I have a fantastic stainless steel water bottle that is 32 oz, and I just make sure to drink two full bottles per day. Its 5 PM and I am almost finished with bottle #2. I am also worried about my iron intake. Its that TOTM, and so I read that women are in danger of iron-deficiency when they lose blood. I already don't have too many sources of iron in my diet, but I am out of some of the biggest ones, like eggs and turkey bacon, and I am almost out of my iron-fortified cereal. September cannot come soon enough, and with it my paychecks from substitute teaching!!!
Today's food update: So my kitchen is continuing to get more and more sparse. I am now out of turkey bacon as well as egg beaters so I have no more real "breakfast-y" food. Soooo...tomorrow it looks like breakfast will be an orange and some chicken breast?
I also drank a heck of a lot of water today. I have a fantastic stainless steel water bottle that is 32 oz, and I just make sure to drink two full bottles per day. Its 5 PM and I am almost finished with bottle #2. I am also worried about my iron intake. Its that TOTM, and so I read that women are in danger of iron-deficiency when they lose blood. I already don't have too many sources of iron in my diet, but I am out of some of the biggest ones, like eggs and turkey bacon, and I am almost out of my iron-fortified cereal. September cannot come soon enough, and with it my paychecks from substitute teaching!!!
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
The Cabaret
So for several months now I have been kicking around the idea of doing my own cabaret. I spend all my time begging for people to cast me in their shows, so one day I came up with the bright idea of just having my own show. I mean, I love the spotlight, thats why I do all this!
So I came up with a theme: Songs from musicals that take place in NY. I picked a bunch of songs. And I decided on a location, a local gay bar that has a great drag show. After a couple weeks of trying, I finally got a hold of someone there and they seemed open to the idea.
But I haven't heard anything since. And I need a pianist, and the first guy I tried never responded to me. I am getting worried its going to be next June before I get this together. I guess I need to try to advertise for another pianist, and keep after the people at the club. I will make this work!!!!
Food update: So I binged a little last night on popchips. I am definitely not buying them again, but in the meantime I have a giant box of them. But I actually calculated the points I used and planned accordingly, so its ok, move on. Today I ran out of egg beaters, laughing cow cheese, olive oil, and potatoes and thats pretty much what I have for breakfast each day so its a bit of a problem. I still have turkey bacon but not much else. I am also out of tomatoes. The food in my fridge has to get me to the end of the month. I am sure I will have food to eat, but it may not be food I can eat, stay within points, and not be totally hungry. We shall see. I hate money and food right now.
So I came up with a theme: Songs from musicals that take place in NY. I picked a bunch of songs. And I decided on a location, a local gay bar that has a great drag show. After a couple weeks of trying, I finally got a hold of someone there and they seemed open to the idea.
But I haven't heard anything since. And I need a pianist, and the first guy I tried never responded to me. I am getting worried its going to be next June before I get this together. I guess I need to try to advertise for another pianist, and keep after the people at the club. I will make this work!!!!
Food update: So I binged a little last night on popchips. I am definitely not buying them again, but in the meantime I have a giant box of them. But I actually calculated the points I used and planned accordingly, so its ok, move on. Today I ran out of egg beaters, laughing cow cheese, olive oil, and potatoes and thats pretty much what I have for breakfast each day so its a bit of a problem. I still have turkey bacon but not much else. I am also out of tomatoes. The food in my fridge has to get me to the end of the month. I am sure I will have food to eat, but it may not be food I can eat, stay within points, and not be totally hungry. We shall see. I hate money and food right now.
The Unusual Usual Life
Welcome to my latest attempt at blogging. I have decided to give it another go after previous failed attempts...There is just so much going on in my life right now, I felt I needed a place to organize my thoughts.
I am trying to "make it" as a musical theatre actress. What does that mean? It means I spend my days going to lots of auditions, classes, lessons, rehearsals, and performances. It means I am planning a move to NYC in January. It means I am totally broke.
I also do taxes at a large chain store. That may not matter much outside of the months of Jan-April to you, but tax preparers work all year. Well, really right now that means taking classes. For instance, today I learned about depreciation.
What's that you say? Why is an actress doing taxes? Well get ready to be blown away, cause I used to be a math teacher. In the inner-city. I still substitute teach (not in the inner city) and tutor math to earn some bucks when I am not doing taxes.
On top of all of this, I am obsessed with losing weight. I let myself get all the way up to 156 lb at the height of 5'4" and my pants stopped fitting. So I read a book called the End of Overeating and recognized myself in it. I loved to do nothing but binge on sweets and fatty food. So as of June 14, I cut out all sugar, artificial sweeteners, and anything fried or too fatty. I am still navigating exactly what that means, but its been rough. I also went on Weight Watchers to help with portion control. So far, I have lost 10 pounds in 9 weeks, which is great, but I want to lose 41 so I have a long way to go. I need to be actress skinny.
I am also trying to earn money doing something a little unusual. I will call it "The Experiment". It requires me to be at a healthy weight and fill out a lot of paperwork.
So thats a short summary of my life right now. I will be sure to keep you updated, I know you are hanging on my every word :)
I am trying to "make it" as a musical theatre actress. What does that mean? It means I spend my days going to lots of auditions, classes, lessons, rehearsals, and performances. It means I am planning a move to NYC in January. It means I am totally broke.
I also do taxes at a large chain store. That may not matter much outside of the months of Jan-April to you, but tax preparers work all year. Well, really right now that means taking classes. For instance, today I learned about depreciation.
What's that you say? Why is an actress doing taxes? Well get ready to be blown away, cause I used to be a math teacher. In the inner-city. I still substitute teach (not in the inner city) and tutor math to earn some bucks when I am not doing taxes.
On top of all of this, I am obsessed with losing weight. I let myself get all the way up to 156 lb at the height of 5'4" and my pants stopped fitting. So I read a book called the End of Overeating and recognized myself in it. I loved to do nothing but binge on sweets and fatty food. So as of June 14, I cut out all sugar, artificial sweeteners, and anything fried or too fatty. I am still navigating exactly what that means, but its been rough. I also went on Weight Watchers to help with portion control. So far, I have lost 10 pounds in 9 weeks, which is great, but I want to lose 41 so I have a long way to go. I need to be actress skinny.
I am also trying to earn money doing something a little unusual. I will call it "The Experiment". It requires me to be at a healthy weight and fill out a lot of paperwork.
So thats a short summary of my life right now. I will be sure to keep you updated, I know you are hanging on my every word :)
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